This past week, I got asked to be in another friend of mine's wedding. this is #6 in the past 5 years! That's a pretty good pace! Like they say, once a bridesmaid...dot dot dot...?? Lets just hope the rest isn't true. a friend of mine and i started talking about the M word today and she had these huge ideas and such a clear vision of what she wanted. She's not even with anyone right now...haha. [yes, i did get her permission before writing this]. I know girls with scrap books, single girls at that, dedicated to making their dream weddings come true. cut out pictures of dresses, cakes, flowers, napkins, invitations...you name it. when she asked me what i wanted in my wedding...i found myself speechless. i haven't a clue about what i want my dream wedding to be. maybe the music...but nothing about locations, colors, themes, linens...etc, etc. i always figured, what good would it do to plan now? what if he hates the color peach? what if he's allergic to tulips? who is "he" gonna be anyway? am i the only girl on earth that doesn't think about these things?
For some reason whenever i think about marriage, all i think about is how i could be the kind of woman to be soo good to a man to make him want to never ever leave my side. when i think of a successful marriage i think about my grandparents. they'll be married for 60 years this year. 60 years!! Thats a long time to be with someone! how how how...i ask. in all of the awful things we experience in relationships...how can 60 years even happen??
I think i'll start by saying...
All that i really want ... the one wish i know i have for my wedding is that when i get married, my grandparents will both be alive to see it happen. They are the two most loving people i've ever met. The two most AMAZING people i've ever met. Of all the things I should have done to make them proud...I want them to be proud in my courage to find love like they have.
Grandpa turned 87 a few days ago. please, God, give me time. because i have to buy another bridesmaid dress. and you know what they say..."once a bridesmaid, always a cute girl that just can't get it right"
just kidding. but close enough. hah!