Monday, June 30, 2008


Strawberry Swing - Coldplay


i am.

and it feels like ice on a long day.
like light in blue eyes
like a major chord.

its so good. its so good.

now, you too.

Saturday, June 28, 2008

"I suppose you have heard the news, Basil?"

Jade: "I suppose you've heard the news, Basil?"
Basil: "What's that?"
Jade: "Seriously? You didn't hear about Thom?"
Basil: " Well, let's think. There are about a billion things I could come up with with just that."
Jade: "He's leaving."
Basil: "For...?"
Jade: "He's moving to San Ampithaca."
Basil: "Really? Man, I guess the kid finally decided to do something with his life. Hah!"
Jade: "...yeah..."
Basil: "Hold on, you're not upset by it, are you? I mean, its been a good, three months since you've spoken? You have a whole other life apart from what things used to be? Not to mention the fact that the guy was a JERK to you."
Jade: "I suppose not. I guess I'm just...I dunno..."
Basil: "Yeah. But you can't think about that, Jade. You just, have to...I dunno, remember that you're better off."
Jade: "Have you ever had something happen to you, something very significant, and months don't even believe it actually happened? Like it was just some, stupid story you were reading that you just got really into? Well, sometimes, I sit and think about how much things have changed in the past three months, and you're right, I have a whole other life..."
Basil: "Definitely."
Jade: "And, I mean, I've also come to realize that I don't miss him that much anymore."
Basil: "Well that's a good thing, isn't it?"
Jade: [ Jade is staring out of the window. ]
Basil: "Jade?"
Jade: "I guess..I just have weird feelings about everything, is all."
Basil: "mmhmm."
Jade: "I had so much love for him. It was two years of pure, fighting I guess, for...well, what I thought was love. And, I felt it, through and through. But now, it's's like none of it ever happened. Part of me wants to miss him, out of some...sick obligation, maybe? But...I just haven't been able to do it."
Basil: "Jade, I think you just need to give it some time. I mean, you've been--"
Jade: "--I mean, does that mean I never even really loved him, Basil? That every emotion I thought I had weren't even real? Because, it just, it can't be humanly possible to actually have that much 'love' for someone and then now, all but three months later, look at us..we don't dare speak to one another? I can handle the fact that, yeah, maybe he didn't really love me. But, I can't..."
Basil: "You can't what?"
Jade: "I can't believe...I don't want to believe that I was lying to myself the whole time. Love wasn't supposed to be this way for me, you know? Or like, whatever it was. You spend two years of your life with someone and you give so much of yourself...and...I can't even remember what he looks like. I can't feel what I felt then. Is this a good or bad thing? I just...I just don't know...I mean, have I wasted my time, if, I don't miss him? And that, I can't say that I'm upset that he's going?"
Basil: [ Basil smiles. ] Haha..No darling, I think that's actually something called...really moving on?"

x x x

goodbye. i wish you the greatest success. and . i hope it's everything i couldn't be.

Friday, June 27, 2008

Thursday, June 26, 2008

dear planet earth


Wednesday, June 25, 2008

will kill purple wookie for sweet looking top

[ copywritten - isaac crowne 2008 ]

Monday, June 23, 2008

gold teeth and a curse for this town were all in my mouth...

i'm moving to norfolk.
my life is here.
but another 1 year lease?
can i even handle that?

x x x

found these online and thought they were 2 qt 2 handle.

so passionate for such little people. hah!

Sunday, June 22, 2008

past few nights...

boar's nest on friday night:

nothing like alt bros going for the gold...


VIP tent at the cajun festival in norfolk:

Saturday, June 21, 2008

stealing bread out from under my nose

| currently listening to: "Bird Stealing Bread" - Iron & Wine |
Bird Stealing Bread - Iron And Wine

dear you..What good is your attitude towards me doing anyone? Why does me hanging out at a party by myself have anything to do with whether or not you'll be there?....none of what you do is making sense to anyone.

x x x

I just cannot wait for this. ruth and casey and elise will be home. and sarah o has been visiting a lot! i love it all. and it will be just like before. because after years and years of love. it just cannot be broken....