Sunday, November 30, 2008

all of the things that i thought were so easy...

just get harder and harder each day.

Thursday, November 27, 2008

a new man in my life

My darling Nephew...
Indiana Matthew Krepcho

Born at 7:17AM - Thanksgiving Day

3lbs 7oz
16 & 1/2 inches

I am so thankful. God is good!

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

throw back 2

me and lolo. favorite napping partner

me at 3. i'm telling you. from the womb.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

final thought of the night

confession: i have a huge huge crush on ezra koenig from vampire weekend. cutest. my voice of choice. long lashes. you get it. i really feel like i have never felt this way about someone i don't even know. how is it that whenever i watch an interview of him, he seems to mention his asian girlfriend? and how is it that i genuinely boil inside with jealousy? i really feel like this is a problem and i need to do something about it. i kind of feel like the only solution would be to meet him and make him fall in love with me. maybe i can invite him to the super sweet new years eve party? this blog has reached a new low. goodnight.

Monday, November 24, 2008


but most of all
that my nephew is born healthy.
please pray for his safe arrival.


my nephew's coming this week! i'm excited................

Saturday, November 22, 2008

oh lawwd

as of today my baby brother ( 13 y.0.) has a blog. and its genius. he has 3 posts for today. in regards to abortion, here's an excerpt from his most recent entry:



in other words: babies is greater than nasty old rapists and or nasty old men and or men that encourage abortion, etc.

you can read more here: [SAMWISE].

welcome him with open arms....

Friday, November 21, 2008


in no way am i saying that i'm perfect...but good GOD! i've learned that being friends with people that have no balance in their lives is pointless so i'm not even going to try anymore.

people are such hypocrites.

au revoir!

Thursday, November 20, 2008


this is great. someone called me a hipster a few days ago and frankly, i think i listen to too much jazz and am way too interested in chanel suits for that shizzz....

but you. you're TOTALLY a hipster.

i've realized something.
There comes a time in a woman's life where she becomes ok with certain things. Ok in the sense that, she realizes that hey, I'm never gonna change why stress?

There also comes a time in a woman's life where she begins to see patterns of things, brought by emotions, relationships, our physical beings, our spiritual beings, that turn into something like a routine. a second nature routine that we don't even know we're taking part in...its kinda just us in motion. i've always admired women like this...and my aunt used to say that every woman eventually goes through a time where they come to an understanding with themselves.

i'm realizing that these two things have crept up on me. i like being a woman and learning things. i like when the better things creep up.


i layed in my bed yesterday and thought a lot about what went on this past year. it seems as though 2008 was the darkest for a lot of us. i felt a lot of pain and my loved ones felt a lot of pain and my friends felt a lot of pain. it was a tough year...but we all came out alive, which shows me that none of it was strong enough to beat us. thank God for that.

In my own life, however...i almost feel like i went head to head with a real demon. a demon that trampled on my heart, my self esteem, my peace. a demon that had no regrets and was reckless against - me and only me. i felt like i was in a boxing match trying my best to endure punch after punch. bight after bight. kick after kick. no one in my life was ever that in-humane, heartless, lacking in morale, disgusting, foul mouthed, pitiful as he was. no one in my life had ever been able to make me feel so worthless than he did. but in the past few days, thinking about him i feel no anger or sadness or wanting. in the past few days i've felt lack of feelings about thomas, and i feel as if that means something. i mean, not even a hint. what a relief. what a relief. what a release. what freedom. God is good.


God is good.

In addition, A few more things that have crept upon me this week:

- i'm finally ok with:
1) the shape of my nose
2) my height
3) the color of my eyes

- i tend to do the same things at the same time, every day. for example: getting hungry, using the bathroom, cigarette breaks.

- and with the latter, i've also realized that my need/want for a cigarette has drastically decreased! this is great news!

i've also realized that winter brings me love
and that summer brings me heart ache.
and that everything in between is up for grabs.

i did A LOT of thinking the past two days my phone was missing. in fact, i'm contemplating getting rid of it. how funny would that be?

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

dear baby cakes.

i lost my phone today and have yet to find it.
i've been searching for 2 hours.

praaaaaay i find it.

Monday, November 17, 2008

throw back

mom and dad, circa 1979
taken from momma's facebook.

Sunday, November 16, 2008

the ultimate post secret

i feel this way every single day.
i probably should feel like an idiot for posting this...especially when i'm single. but i really thought i was the only one...

having been at my grandparents' 60th wedding anniversary....i get scared that with their health deteriorating that they won't see the last grand daughter of theirs get married. my grandparents are my heroes. and this really makes me sad.

60 years

i'm in d.c. celebrating my grandparents' 60th anniversary.
i can't write much right now and will have pictures later but...
how is it possible that love can last that long?

i'm amazed. and i want it.

Friday, November 14, 2008

i die

I really love this pant.
not that i wanna be all, "Girl, that top would look GREAT with a 'dark acid wash denim pant'!"
but really. this is like, art pant. like, i'd be shopping with someone and they'd point them out to me as a joke but i would totally take them seriously. i'm pretty sure these were at jcrew or somewhere mom-ish a few seasons ago, but i really am embracing the fact that your lower half could double as wall paper.

find me art pants!

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

the mooove

is soon.

(i don't even know what that face means)

we're buying a tandem bike as soon as i move in.
how real would your life be if i rolled up in a tandem bike???

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

family portraits.

© 2008 juliaramos_photography

Monday, November 10, 2008

Sunday, November 9, 2008

black and white blues

thank God for amazing friends. what a great weekend.