"The Lord would speak to Moses face to face, as a man speaks with his friend." Exodus 33:11
the other day i had the opportunity to sit and talk with one of my customers about her life. she is a 60-something year old black woman who pastors a church in the roughest part of norfolk. the star quarterback of a local high school was recently shot to death and somehow she got to talking about it with me. turns out the young man was a good friend of her grandson's who had gotten shot to death in her own front yard. a week after her grandson was shot, her husband died of heart failure. talk about a tough life. talk about emptiness. talk about hurt.
anyway. in the end, her declaration was that of complete trust in the God she has been preaching about. that he speaks in ways that are beyond our understanding and that what he was telling her was that she no longer could rely on her own thoughts but on what his heart was for her. and she smiled. and didn't sulk. not once. she didn't even accept my condolences.
i've been thinking a lot about that lady. especially last night.
what is strength? where do you find strength?
some people feel strength is in talent or beauty.
some people feel strength is in intellect.
some people feel strength in viciousness.
some people feel strength in popularity.
some people feel strength in so called "superiority".
and some people, like this lady, gain strength from a higher power.
the #2 curse of my generation. . .
Identifying strength in their self brand through demeaning, hurtful, and invaluable things.
my resolution for 2009 is this: To figure out where to gain real, lasting strength. because by the end of 2008...i was/am running low.