Friday, February 27, 2009

on the boosh

OBSESSED with this show. someone buy it for me on dvd





minus the occasional unnecessary song, i really love this show...

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

on the revolution of your life

first things first, the bang is back...



i bring the bang back once a year and then get tired of it. i think i may already be tired of it. either way, in staying true to the revolution of my life, its good to have at least one constant. those being, my family, a very select group of friends, and the bang.


I have never been a believer in allowing my life to just play out the way its supposed to. lately, however, i've been learning very valuable lessons from it. mostly i've learned that when you learn to deal with your reality in black and whites and not by formulas or games or strategery, you allow for God to solve things through His plan. and if you don't believe in God, i'm sure you can agree that it isn't you controlling your life, because if you were, you'd already be a millionaire. my point is that no matter who we are, what walk of life, or question, or answer we have in our minds, it all boils down tot he fact that we aren't in control. Once we come to that realization, it's ok to live again. and it feels better. i think that a lot of my generation's problem is that we don't want to come to terms with our individual realities. i think we're scared to recognize that each of our realities are different and that coming to terms with our own is daunting because it makes us feel alone. i read in a book once that reality is like a fine wine that will never be appealing to children. ouch, right? but, its so true. we live in a society that believes so much in using money or sex or technology to instantly make all of our dreams and fantasies come true. why do you think so many people end up in rehabilitation or in debt? It's just like being a kid in a candy store...but when reality is in the mix, all we want to do is spit it out.


this blog is not about giving up a proactive lifestyle, by any means. i'm saying that the first step to getting the wheels really spinning again, towards a positive lifestyle, is to become aware of your reality and to throw away all of the play books because they will either leave you burdened with sore hands and feet, or 50 with a huge house but no one to live in it with you. a revolution, politically, or otherwise is never expected. this being on, the revolution of your life AND the revolution of your life.

i'm leaving you with this. because, you have to wait! cuz its gonna be...all right!

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

on betrayal.

be⋅tray
   /bɪˈtreɪ/ Show Spelled Pronunciation [bi-trey] Show IPA
–verb (used with object)
1. to deliver or expose to an enemy by treachery or disloyalty: Benedict Arnold betrayed his country.
2. to be unfaithful in guarding, maintaining, or fulfilling: to betray a trust.
3. to disappoint the hopes or expectations of; be disloyal to: to betray one's friends.
4. to reveal or disclose in violation of confidence: to betray a secret.
5. to reveal unconsciously (something one would preferably conceal): Her nervousness betrays her insecurity.
6. to show or exhibit; reveal; disclose: an unfeeling remark that betrays his lack of concern.
7. to deceive, misguide, or corrupt: a young lawyer betrayed by political ambitions into irreparable folly.
8. to seduce and desert.


all. of . the . above.
i feel extremely sad about having lost what i lost.
but sometimes it's for the better.

lies are so hurtful, guys. don't do it to yourself or to others.

Sunday, February 22, 2009

Friday, February 20, 2009

on sun sun sun

into these lovely days in ghent.
the suns been good for my soul.


here are a few in the moment pics from this week i took w. my mobile.


walked in from work and into the kitchen. mom's nuuts/hilarious..



fresh market. i mean, rully rully fresh, y'all.




last night w the three of us together before ruth leaves! sadness.



my little joy! indie boy. the nephew. can't believe how big he's gotten...



me and my new bff.




more later.
i love kelly m. mccann

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

on gay rights

I've discussed this issue a lot lately. Especially with my ultra conservative parents. I would like to preface this by clarifying my political stance. I also consider myself a conservative however not an ultra conservative. I am a registered republican and have no problem acknowledging that.

Here's why I feel like I need to bring this whole thing up. I believe a lot of my generation feels this way but hasn't been able to vocalize it. Especially young people that grew up in the same type of religious household I was raised in. There is a misconception that self proclaimed Christians are ignorant, judgmental, and hateful people when in reality, that isn't the truth at all. I happen to have a few friends and clients that are gay. I haven't once denied them of help or an ear or shoulder to cry on when they needed it. I have never denied them love or support because of their sexual orientations. I am genuinely ashamed when Christians act ignorantly and hateful towards gay people. Most of the gay people I know happen to be the most loving, honest, hard working, and wonderful people I have ever met.


I believe that since we as the US of A decided it would be such a great idea to give people "liberty and justice, for all" it is our responsibility to uphold this right. We are obligated as American citizens to make those words a reality; our current president being a great example of this. That being said...I don't believe that Christians/Conservatives should be running around trying to make it illegal to be gay or to make it illegal to have homosexuality introduced to children during sex ed in elementary schools. Do I agree with homosexuality? Do I want my kid learning about that in elementary school? As a christian, it goes against everything I believe in - that being the Bible - but as a human being, and if the Bible did not exist, I think that good natured, just, and non-judgmental human beings wouldn't even be phased by it. Just as we being humans, find it harmless to lie, we all know that it is wrong. Just as we are women, we love to gossip, but know that it isn't right. Just as promiscuity is dangerous and wrong, as humans we like it because it feels good. If I did not believe in the values of the bible, homosexuality wouldn't be an issue to me. BUT, I am a christian, and I base the things i believe off of the Bible. I'm not the perfect Christian, but when I think about how much good that has come from being raised in a Christian home, I think about the values I would like to try my best to live by and raise my children by, and I believe that that is in Christianity. And what I believe is that as Christians, we shouldn't judge a person based on their sexual orientation. Because I wouldn't ever dare cast the first stone. As an American citizen, I believe that it is our responsibility to give every person their right to everyone having "liberty and justice, for all".

Tonight, the subject of civil unions vs. marriage came up. This is what I believe:

Give homosexuals civil unions and allow them to have the same benefits married couples have. Insurance benefits, protection benefits, contractual allowances, etc. If we as American's are going to play the "constitutional rights" card with burning an American flag and bash a president or to have 8 children while on welfare, then lets go all out and let homosexuals have the right to that card too. It is our obligation to allow the right for everyone to have the same rights as anyone else. I am 100% for civil unions.

That being said, as a Christian & American citizen, I have the right to protect marriage as a religious union between a man and a woman. Marriage has always been and always will be a religious and holy experience when a man and woman are united before God. Why should churches be forced to allow homosexual couples to get married when civil unions are being legalized left and right? On every other issue, the church is forced to separate itself from the state - until now, when the tables have turned and the state is expecting the church to change its views for the sake of a few boys with their panties in a bunch! Marriage is made for a man & woman, before God, as a contract between the God of the Bible, you and your spouse.


My point is this, just because the government didn't think about what the real meaning of a constitutional right was when they wrote that clause on your insurance coverage contract, there is no reason to be burning churches down, protesting churches, OR for christians to be protesting with signs that gay people are going to burn in hell, etc. The solution lies in the government realizing their hypocrisy and going all or nothing. If you're going to force churches to agree with the state and make gay MARRIAGE legal, if you're going to start teaching 5 year olds about homosexuality, start offering bible classes in public schools and allow us to say Merry Christmas during the Holidays.


ALL or NOTHING.
Either way, we are damned if we don't, damned if we do.

Monday, February 16, 2009

p.s.












libby rules allll

in love with being congenial

what would be better? to win the pagent or miss congeniality?

i feel like i'd rather be the girl that was congenial than the one that everyone hates because she's good at everything and won the crown. but is miss congeniality just an award for the girl that everyone feels bad for because everyone knows that her hair isn't big enough and that you don't get pagent dresses at penny's anymore - but shoot! she's so cute and tries so hard to be on top! lets give her a crown and a sash. congrats to the most congenial. but only because you feel bad for her.

which would you rather be?




my valentines day was the best yet. 2 weeks until i lose my best friend to the costa rican jungles. i'm still devastated about it.

Friday, February 13, 2009

happy valentines day



don't really know why this is so blue.
irony?

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

salud

I've gotten positive feed back on my purple dress today. Wear purple, ladies. It gives you good vibes. good vibes.

I start my new job tomorrow. kinda a mess. kinda intimidated.
I'm planning on going home and reading reading reading about my tasks at hand! Kinda hate studying.

I have 22 days left with my best friend and I am completely devastated.

Monday, February 9, 2009

lunch breakz

Today's been busy busy. I have a fashion shoot tonight that i'm pumped about! We're doing a modern take on what John Rawlings did for vogue in the 50/60s. so essited.

I start my new job thursday. I'm getting a blackberry to consolidate time/space/hands/gas. kinda scared about it. see ya life.



Check out John Rawlings' shots here.

Sunday, February 8, 2009

bight the bullet

i'll say one thing and one thing only about last night.
With men, there will never, EVER be anything again that will surprise me.
aka...things can only get better from here. I'm fully convinced that I have reached the pinnacle of discovering a man's heartless capacity & that what I conceived to be true in the beginning was right all along. (Kell & Kimmy, I'll fill you in on what I'm talking about soon enough...)

DEUCES!


xxxx


I really wanted my niece to experience her first tea somewhere real special. I got my sisters and mother together for a nice afternoon at the painted lady so we could let Olivia enjoy herself. As soon as we told her we were "going to have a tea party" she was so very excited. seeew very excited. It was a lovely time and i was glad my sisters, mum, and i were able to have a nice saturday afternoon together. I really love them so much! Here are pics from the afternoon....


















Friday, February 6, 2009

was sew excited

got this dress the other day and was so excited about wearin it and what do i do but drop hummus on it. dumb. love is definitely a losing game. thanks for pointing that out amy.

Thursday, February 5, 2009

gr8 in 08 / fine in 09

Don't even try to take that saying. MAN i'm clever/awesome.


...


Goals for 09:


- buy my own place
- new car
- find more time to read
- get Paper Heart Vintage off the ground by 1) finding more time for it 2) getting a business liscence
- write more music/band it up/become more proficient at guitar & pianer
- juliaramos_photography in 09. lyke, forreals forreals.
- get into styling again.


wtf has happend to me? i used to be way more clever/awesome? crazy how much money sucks out of you. somepeople are willing to put their real dreams aside just to make a life and then there are others that are willing to live off scraps just so that they can live their dreams - here and now. i kind of want to be the perfect mix of the two and i'd like to think i'm going about it the best way possible. this past year has been making good with the man and i feel like 09 needs to be me getting the man to make good with me if you know what i'm sayin.

i'm excited about my life. on my way to work today i thought about how my girls and i are all kind of at that point in our lives where real things have begun. sarah, casey, ruth, and i are all kind of making things happen right now. i'm glad that i've been spending a lot of time with women who have goals and are actively pursuing them. i sincerely believe that if you surround yourself with people aiming for the greatness you are, it is so much easier and such a motivation to get where you want to be. we are all slightly neurotic, but there's something to be said about people that work hard to make their lives worth something.



man oh man, is it cold.....

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

turn that frown upside down

so today i had a conversation with my boss about this whole "pay cut" thing.

welp. i ended up getting a promotion out of it. hours are back to normal and higher pay.Moral of the story is that prayer really works. It not only fixes things, it makes things better. God is so good.

Richmond was awesome. Besides the fact that i was compeltely numb on benadryl the whole weekend, it was refreshing. did a little modeling for sarah's botique / salon then went to ipanima for 2 dollar drafts! then to short pump to completely blow money i didn't have. atleast i look cute?

casey will be here soon! i'm so essited!!



DRINKS ON ME, Y'ALL. ew just kidding.

Monday, February 2, 2009

heart beats knife beats stone



something about road trips makes me so happy.
long roads and great albums and sights and smells.

today is going to be my day.
sorry to break it to you everyone else.


see you in a few days. i'm gonna go clear my head for a bit.

Sunday, February 1, 2009

020108



luv u. always & forev ezra.

where did January even go? although, i must say, my party feels like forever ago. i guess i just can't believe that we're already in month #2 of 2009. my nephew is getting bigger by the day and i'm losing more and more time to catch up with everything....

had a great weekend. friday night ruth and i went to a tapas lounge in vb called avanti. (please don't judge me. kind of wasn't our choice.) besides the scantily clad women all over the place, it was actually a beautiful venue. adam and his friends treated us to a good time...complete with roses from "mama avanti" who walked around with a basket of flowers and got drinks served in glowing space cups. kinda felt like i was in the 3rd dimension. kinda hated that it was tool city. nonetheless it was fun. and i danced with a guy who looked like prince william all night. can't beat that.

left work early yesterday, went home and napped until ruth and i were ready to hang. footers for a few drinks and best friend time. that is what i love about ruth. we could sit there for hours and never run out of things to talk about. i am really really going to miss her. 2 more years of her missing. i'm so very proud of her but wish we could just be with each other all the time.


a lot of my friends are moving away. there really is no way to express how i feel about being in vb alone again. there's something about your close friends making what you call home, home. what's a girl to do but make a home somewhere else?

ah. maybe that isn't the solution. all i know is that i hate feeling the way that i have been lately and i need a change of scenery.


richmond monday & tuesday. if you're there, hit it up.

in other news:



i'm totally down, kid.