Thursday, April 30, 2009

today i miss:

-julia ramos photography-

paris. what do you miss?



i'm getting a tattoo next week but i need to finalize some thangs.

i've basically lived by this verse all my life:

"Wait for the LORD; Be strong and let your heart take courage; Yes, wait for the LORD."

- i'd like the words, "be strong & let your heart take courage" around something like a rose blooming into the face of a lion. The rose being symbolic of beauty and love and growth but also being that my momma's name is rosemarie & the lion is obv a symbol of strength and courage and my father's name, ariel, means lion of God. i'm thinking a blooming rose, with the inside petals forming a lions face.

who can even understand and who can even make that happen for me is the question. i told kenny lutz about it and he made me this, lol:

not quite what i was going for, but i thought it wuz funny. i'm thinking something a little more one of a kind than a lions face in the middle of a flower...

i'm going to ask megan & steve riddle to draw me some samples.
in the mean time, tell me whut you even thank.

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Saturday, April 25, 2009

yeah. i'm in dc.
whenever i get the chance to sit and talk with my family about life i do. nostalgia? pride? reaffirming my place? all of it.

i've been taking a lot of pictures...mostly of treasures i've found over the years in my aunts house that have always inspired me. including: a hand crafted silver necklace she got from a saudi arabian bedouin, a venecian theatre mask made of pure marble, aventinus coasters she stole from the g. schneider & sohn brewery years ago, and her baby grand...just to name a few. pictures soon.

i especially love to sit and talk with my grandparents who, for their old age, are still present minded, speak perfect english - even correct my grammar, and have amazing memories. i really believe that it is so important for people to understand where they came from and to learn as much as they can from the generations before them before you have to go about it all on your own.

tonight's subject was love. they started asking me questions about the piano thomas gave me and were wondering how i was going to get rid of it. at first, they said, they thought that this was thomas' way of winning the family over to allow him to marry me - which brought us into the story of the beginning of my grandparents' life together :

over 60 years ago, when my grandfather asked for my grandmother's hand in marriage, in certain social circles, it was expected of the young man asking for the lady's hand in marriage's family to offer something similiar to what some islamic countries call, a mahr. the philippines is not an islamic country so this isn't quite what they called it, but the concept was the same. in asking for the lady's hand, the man was expected to offer gifts to her family; proof that he could provide for her.

my grandfather can still describe it today and has vividly recapped all of this in his memoirs. he can remember what the weather was like and how he chose his outfit specific to still looking neat after walking through the rain. he can remember the smells and sounds and each name of every person of importance. he described how nervous he was and how he carefully chose and had a reason for the bottle of wine, rare delicacies, and expensive trinkets that he did. he remembers how his heart pounded walking up those stairs and how he could feel the sweat dripping from his brow. "what if this isn't good enough?" he thought. "what if this isn't enough for her?"

while all of the other bride-to-be's parents were months long into their negotiations...after the months of toiling over what he would present. After making the hard choice of who would be his two whitnesses, to his surprise, my grandmother's family refused to accept anything at all!

the one thing that they did ask, was that he would deeply and truly love her, just as she deserved. nothing material needed.

that , ladies & gentleman, is what you call the real deal.


i'll take the blue from franconia to king st then the yellow to gallery pl for a brunch.
then the red and then the blue to smithisonian to check out Robert Frank's "The Americans" at the National Gallery.


more beeeer.
don't lose yourself.

don't let yourself be lost.

Thursday, April 23, 2009

love vs hate vs. etc

A few things i realized i hated these past 2 weeks:

- that i grind my teeth when i'm nervous / stressed / confused/ thoughtful / etc.
- calluses from playing guitar. sew painful.
- not getting my paycheck when i am expecting it.
- people that have an inability to man up.
- pocketmac.
- the way that every left spike in a pair of heels that i own somehow end up way more tattered and worn than my right
- the frequency of my parents' traveling out of the country.
- cleaning my car.
- how dirty my car is.
- the fact that i bought a $90 ipod adapter for my car, which hasn't worked, but haven't had the time to return it yet.
- how high my belly button is. ask me next time you see me and i'll show you. sick.
- my drive to work. its long. and boring.

A few things i realized i loved these past 2 weeks:

- how much deep thinking i've been able to accomplish on my long boring drive to work!
- printed hosiery.
- influx w/john am spinning.
- aventinus beer.
- jersey knit sheets..
- menswear for women.
- the way that most of my guy friends have a deeper commitment to a dance floor than i.
- pomegranate mimosas.
- getting flowers in the mail.
- getting a drink with jesse.
- coming to the realization that my friends really do believe in me and are great great supportive people.
- The Veils.
- meeting people that are in no way attached to my group of friends.


- today, i think i helped a man cheat on his wife. these are only assumptions, of course. he asked me how "his friend" could lock his phone so that his friends wife couldn't get into it and also how he could make it so that the phone didn't record his call history. he also asked me if he could purchase a memory card to store all of "his friends" photos on and then if i could wipe the handset clean of any information at all, especially the contacts. he then leaves the store with my card, calls 5 minutes later asking what time i was closing, and then comes back asking if the phone's battery could hold any memory and wanted to buy a new one if so. i told him it did and charged him extra for it. eh?

- tomorrow i leave for DC till sunday night. i've missed my aunt so much. a few of you have met her and know how much i love her. if i could accomplish half of what she has in her life so far, i'd die happy and completely satisfied. brunch with jon golike on sunday. excited.

- kings of leon & the walkmen on monday. cannot even waiiit.

that. is. it.

Tuesday, April 21, 2009


this reminds me of being 5:


dad (in the glasses on guitar):

i wunna be 5 again.

have you ever looked in the mirror and have been faced with painful, menacing confusion? inside you feel like someone completely different from what you see. and it scares the hell out of you?


i'm not trying to be poetic. and its not so much that i don't know who i am as a person but...what is a body . i can see and feel and hear and cry and laugh but why a body? what's the point? what a weird thought. i guess i just don't know what to think when i look at myself. not in an aesthetic way. not in a self glorifying way or in wrinkles or anything like that. but who? who is that person you see? seriously. have i met her?

i think that sharing with you what i see and what i actually feel would be too intimate. and it hurts to say that but its true. i don't know how healthy this thinking is, but i'm thinking it. at first i thought...everyone feels this way. everyone is someone else, really. but the more i thought about it, i can name more people i'm sure could identify themselves as exactly what they see in the mirror and that i'm one of a few that have no concept of what i guess i can call, "reflection reality". reality being, what their heart beats. feelings and thoughts swirling in their heads and how it connects to the way i use my hands. or my posture. or the way i wear my hair. i'm probably confusing you.

i guess my question is, should someone identify themselves inwardly just as they do outwardly? at what point do you feel whole? in that your body feels at home in itself?

why do i get so confused when i see her?

this post should probably be private. but if you understand what i mean, it'd be comforting to know.

Monday, April 20, 2009

i hope i get this job

howw freaking sweet would my life be? i'd have no life but it would be an awesome not having a life. pray pray pray.

Sunday, April 19, 2009

so addicted to this shiz

sister showed me this today:

[ love it

kind of like the tenori-on except on your desktop. check out little boots using it to cover hot chip:

see ya lyfe.


good news. jordan brazie from valaric surf boards is going to make me a custom board! all white, with the paper heart logo on it - - and at material cost! love it. if you want a custom board or need repairs go to the Valaric Boards myspace: here .

sister sent me a link from craig's list for a job she thought i'd be perfect for. and yes, i applied. love it:



Date: 2009-04-17, 12:07PM

Busy young executive seeking personal assistant to help with all the things I don't have enough time to do on my own. Role would include:
*Executive assistant work: planning and arranging travel, setting up appointments
*Shopping assistant work: shopping for basics as well as clothing and occasional specialty items like furniture, etc. (important that person have a sense of style)
*Social assistant work: helping set up dinner parties and other social events, arranging catering, attending the larger events to make sure things go well, etc. (important that person be presentable and poised)
*Domestic assistant work: laundry, ironing, potentially cooking, etc
*Very flexible To Travel 70% OF TIME.
Mybusiness involves the clothing field - a good personal presentation is key.


PIC with resume is appreciated., and perhaps we can meet for coffee to speak further

* Location: Virginia Beach
* Compensation: @Interview
* Principals only. Recruiters, please don't contact this job poster.
* Please, no phone calls about this job!
* Please do not contact job poster about other services, products or commercial interests.


hopefully i get it. i think it would be an amazing adventure

Saturday, April 18, 2009

on keeping up with my 'personal brand'

i feel like my "personal brand" would be complete if learned how to 'shred that gnar' that everyone's always talking about.

i've lived here for 22 years and have attempted twice and both times have done well but just never kept up. who wants to help me ?? sarahmarie? rach? kimmy? mr.crowne? anywone in the universe???? all of my friends are 10x more awesome than i am and i feel left out.

point is...this needs to be me in T minus 3 months. . .


Friday, April 17, 2009

satorial saturations?

thank you scott..

pop star . one half of the kimmy & julia show.

Best Sartorial advice from your parents?
attention to detail. the importance of good fabric.

Style icons?
my mother, carine roitfeld, ashley olsen, francoise hardey

Describe your personal style...
i'm really into mixing basics with one of a kind pieces. feminine silhouettes.

I build my daily look around?
my schedule for the day - if i'm at the office, i'll put on a dress - if its errands, its denim - but i will always have a pair of heels on!

Personal Style quirk?
nothing is too outrageous.

Favorite designers?
phillip lim, marc jacobs, ann demeulemeester, monique lhuillier...

Most cherished item?
my silver wrap around ring & a dress my mother gave me that she got as a gift from my dad when they were dating.

Never caught wearing?
parachute pants. yuuck. don't get it.

Most underrated item in menswear/womenswear?
i think that more women should play with blazers - they're flattering and sharpen up any outfit. for men, i think that color is underrated! and prints other than polka dots & stripes.

Dress to impress who?
dress to impress yourself. but i think that staying aesthetically pleasing is a necessity.

Flats or heels?
heels. way too short to be wearing flats.

Favorite stores?
usually forever 21 for last minute, one stop things that i know i won't wear more than once or twice. i really love small boutiques like NEED in richmond, va / what comes around goes around in soho / studio 615 in nashville. i also love anthropologie & urban outfitters, of course!

Your next "must have" purchase?
oliver peoples zooey sunglasses in SLB w G15

I skimp when buying ...
anything i don't think i'll wear more than once or twice.

I splurge on...
the basic essentials. pencil skirts, denim, jackets, anything with luxe fabrics, and i WILL splurge on a great dress.

Favorite item of clothing?
a purple sweater dress by LA mixx

Favorite fashion magazines?
i don't care how trendy the other publications are, vogue will always be the end all be all.

Favorite (style) books?
new york fashion by sonnet stanfil

Favorite stylish movies?
annie hall, vanity fair, breakfast at tiffany's!

Favorite vacation spot?
boracay, PI / madrid, Spain

Favorite neighborhood restaurant?
anywhere on colley ave! esp nazef. i also love baker's crust.

Thursday, April 16, 2009

we'd look better if we win.

good morning ladies and gentleman.

i've had a marvelous past few days. God is always great about giving me a few really really great days after things go crazy. besides the jumbled thoughts, i've had great people to sort it all out for me and make me feel human again.

easter was great. got up pretty early and sang. had service and then grilled out at the house. it was a pretty chill afternoon. the kennons came over and we all just sat around ate and talked in the living room for a good 3 hours. all this week i've thought about pastor's sermon on what the world would be like if Jesus had not resurrected. He brought up great ideas about wars and israel and how weak the US probably would have been if the US existed at all. He also brought up great points as far as the validity of the resurrection is concerned. His question was...why would 11/12 disciples give their lives for something they knew was a lie? Why would hundreds of his followers choose martyrdom, exile, alienation for something that wasn't true? All of it really made me think and really shook me up. More than anything he touched on the affect the resurrection has had on what hope means for so many people. hope is what people needed and his resurrection did that. the lesson i learned this past week has been to keep hoping in what God has for me because everything else is out of my control. its the same lesson i've been learning over and over the past few years of my life but its always something completely different each time.

Monday was pretty relaxed. had breakfast with david and then went to work till 7. Tuesday was work again and then business planning for a few hours and then an amazing dinner with dave wright at bakers crust. I realized how much of a food nut i am that night when the waiter brought out what was supposed to be carpese salad, except it had parsley on top. i had it sent back and corrected. dave had no idea what was going on and i kind of felt like a biatch, but a caprece salad is a caprece salad and it doesn't take a culinary genius to make a caprece salad. am i rambling? you guys have no idea what i'm talking about . . . anyway, the rest of the meal was amazing and their crepes are some of the best i've ever had...even more than the ones we had in france! (i'm gonna get in a lot of trouble for that...). after, went to isaac's loft and roller skated all night! got a mean bruise on my knee that you should ask to see next time you see me. its totally dot from a league of their own's bruise status.

Wednesday had brunch with kimjong. oh how i love that girl. we were going to go to ihop but i decided to bring her to the broken egg since everyone seems to love it there. it was both our first time and very very worth it. they had pomegranate mimosas!!

left there and went and played music for a few hours. we decided that we're starting a band called "receive THIS". hahaha. ugh. we also decided that we're going to get all "mandy & mylers show" on the youtube and start a "kimmy & julia show". there will be social commentary. there will be re-enactments of nights prior. there will be guts busted and lyves rocked and etc. oh yeah, and covers...

here's our first. this song has been on my mind a lot lately. "oh why can't i feel for you? / my heart is so black to you / .... / Oh love! Set me free! set me free! come on and set me free!"

the original is on their album "Ode to Sunshine" - here is our version. enjoy.

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

p.s. tell your friendsssss

[ ADD US! ]

obsession du jour

What is your current obsession?
my quality of life

What is your weirdest obsession?
i have always had this weird obsession with successful people my age. ie: the olsen twins, mark zuckerberg, etc.

What are you wearing today?
a smile.

What would you like to learn to do?
i'd like to learn how to read music again.

What are the last things you bought?

What are you listening to right now?
delta spirit

What is your favorite weather?
somewhere around 76 with a light breeze. no humidity.

What is on your bedside table?
a lamp, a few books, a picture box, a vase of roses

What is your most challenging goal right now?
direction. not letting the blind lead the blind.

What do you think about the person who tagged you?

Where would you like to be?
don't quite know yet. some city. chicago? portland?

Who is your favorite designer?
right now - phillip lim / chloe / miu miu / marchesa

What would you like to have in your hands right now?
another hand

If you could have a house totally paid for, fully furnished anywhere in the world, where would you like it to be?
I'd love a studio loft in chicago or paris or seattle.

Which language do you want to learn?
French. or German...apparently?

What's your favorite color?

What is your dream job?
musician or own my own botique! PHV y'all.

What are your plans for this summer?
greece. greece. love. greece. wilco.

What is your favorite magazine?
bomb / juxtapoz / ny times magazine

Who is your style-icon?
carine roitfeld, ashley olsen, the

Favourite movie:
amelie / eternal sunshine of the spotless mind


Monday, April 13, 2009

on not having time to blog?

Maybe its not necessarily that i haven't had time to blog, i've just been lacking in motivation to blog. mostly because i've been in this weird mood where i'd rather soak then squeeze...make sense?


a few of you have been curious about the new job. overall i'd say that its going great. corporate is opening a store 2 mins away from where my store is and i'm more than worried about what that'll mean for us. i don't really know what the need for us being around would be, but hopefully they will need us. i'd hate to think that i've put time and gas and work into this store to get it running for nothing...

i've been meeting with some people recently about my wanting to open an actual store for paper heart. i haven't really let many people hear what my ideas for the business are except for a select few. mainly because i don't want to get ahead of myself and get my own hopes up for something that would be awesome to accomplish, but is very daunting and a lot of work. so far i've gotten a great response and have a few people that are already interested in investing, but i definitely want to get a good business plan written up so i can organize my thoughts and actually get things onto paper. money is the biggest issue right now and although i'd like to start it without taking out any loans, not doing so is probably going to be close to impossible. hopefully you guys will be willing to take me in and feed me for a few years when i can't afford to live my lyfe...

either way, i'm so very excited about what i have swimming in my brain. there are a few spaces in downtown norfolk i'd love to place the store in. have even considered looking at the building relative theory used to be in. rumor has it the reason the guys left there was because the rent was so high...hah. this is what i mean by trying to stick to a realistic business plan and to not have visions of grandeur. paper heart is going to be my baby. and as dave put it...starting a business is definitely far from impossible. the real task is not being intimidated by the amount of work that goes into it. but, its just work. work hasn't scared me before?

my goal : 2 years AT MOST. 6 months is really what i want. but who who who knows.
check out paper heart vintage's myspace here. needs a lot of updating. but it'll give you a feel of how i want to present it all. ADD US!

love love love
everything is going to be ok.

- julia

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Thursday, April 9, 2009


Patti Smith


i love the carelessness of it all. effortlessness. dirty, grimy, sweat of it.
lets all not shower for a week and look good together.

check out how topshop has translated this into their spring 09 line:

loove it. i'm excited about my ideas for Paper Heart. Hopefully things go the way i want...